With that in mind, today I did something that I must admit I've put off for about as long as I could. I finally made the dreaded visit to my Ob-Gyn for a physical. Aside from all the internal poking and prodding we women know comes with this visit, there was one thing I wanted to avoid like a plague - the discussion about my weight.
So when the doctor says to you, "You know you're overweight. I'm not telling you anything new," you nod your head and listen to how you should do this and that to fix it. But the real wake up call occurs when your husband says, "One of us needs to be healthy for our son." Now don't go hating on my husband. He in no way meant any malice by that comment. Nor did he say it to hurt my feelings. We both have been struggling with some health issues, so basically he was stating the obvious, but when it's said aloud, somehow it brings the fact that you're overweight to the forefront of your mind.
This is embarrassing to me for it means I must admit how far I've allowed myself to get, but I want to get healthy. I need to be healthy. If not for me, than for my family. For my friends. For my readers. But truthfully, it's for me. I miss taking pride in my appearance. I miss feeling pretty when I get dressed. My initial reaction to the picture above was, "I look frumpy." I shouldn't feel that way about myself.
Today, the doctor weighed me in at 194 lbs.
I will come back every Wednesday and tell you of my progress. This can and will include my weekly weigh-in, workouts I might've tried, recipes I've found, and more. Nothing, and I do mean nothing, will be off limits. And once a month I will post a picture of myself. Words are words, but pictures can be worth a thousand words.
I encourage your comments, thoughts, and even advise. Your input is appreciated.
So wish me luck as I embark on this life change. I refuse to call it a diet, because diets don't last forever. I want to change. To create a constant, healthy life for myself.
My loved ones deserve this. I deserve this.
Thank you for joining me on this new phase of my life.